Tuesday, February 8, 2011
I want to be real with you in this post. Not that I am not real the rest of the time but we all know that we must wear a different face out in public. I have a few faces as well and some of them are confident, some are hard, energetic and some are just plain hard core.
However, my real face is the one my family and friends see, the one that hurts when things go wrong, the one that is not sure what to do and the one that in the dark just before bed is sometimes scared. This is me, raw, real and just trying to do the best I can with what I have been given.
This all said, I want to let you know that if I seem checked out, distant or just plain quiet, it is because I have been going through some personal stuff in my life. Some of it I am happy to report has been amazing and some of it tragic. In all I am working through a ton of, shall we say, crap.
In this time I look at how it has taken my writing and hurt it in some ways and helped it in others. We all are going to go through personal "Crap" in our lives and the key I am finding is to take it and make it bring out a whole new depth in our writing.
If you go through a deep dark depression, take that and work through it in a story. Write how it feels, the way it takes all light from your soul. Use it to learn and in the end once the sun rises you will be the better for it.
Going through divorce, rejection, betrayal or if you find true love, make a new friend or lose a loved one. Take it all and keep writing. I know it has been hard for me as the last thing I want to do it write, but once I start it flows and pours from me like never before.
I know this post is not all warm and fuzzy or one that will get you motivated. But file it away for one day you may need it. Even if the world seems like it is falling apart there is always hope, and a light at the end. I hope to find that light and that my depth as a person and a writer will grow. We can only do the best we can do but in our worst we can still claw and crawl out of a hole and rise up.
Here is to life. Filled with danger, anger, fear, joy and so much more. Live in spite of fear, and love with all of your heart.
This sap is out, carry on.